Lonely and Helpless

I wasn’t going to write anything about 9/11 until every blog I went too seemed to have something on it. Most were about people who knew people, others had profound thoughts on terrorist. Mine is not profound and I didn’t know anyone. In fact, that was the part that made it so painful.

The place I was working at the time had bought a company 15 years earlier that was in Long Island, NY. So 60 to 70 percent of the people I worked with had transferred down from NYC and had family and friends still in NYC. When the Twin Towers were hit and we knew about it, most everyone I worked with and considered friends were on the phone trying to reach someone. I was one of the few that just stood in front of the T.V. and watched. I was so alone. There was nothing I could do. I saw the emotions in everyone around me and I was hurt, frustrated, angry and dumfounded. I did not know how to comfort any of my co-workers / friends. I did not know what was going to happen next. I just stood there. To this day I still don’t know how they lived through it. I listened to so many stories, both happy and sad. But the not knowing, the watching them trying to call and unable to get through or reach someone. Just standing there unable to do anything. I never want to live through that again.

I wish all of those that lost someone the comfort of knowing that people care – I care. And for those lucky enough to have someone make it through all of that, people still care – I care. There is nothing I can say or do to make it any better… but I am here for you and will listen to you.